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Better Now

Everything seems to be working for the better now. I have a new job that is challenging but I like it, I have a new car that works, I am in the best shape i've ever been in, and my mental health is back in a good place.

My new job has me doing a lot of video and photo work (and all the editing that goes with it). My favorite projects is when I get to do some photoshop work and I have already fallen back in love with it.

With reading my total listening time on audible is about to reach 2 months which considering that I created my account in late 2016 really shows a glimpse of how much time I have spent driving

So anyways that's my life update, I don't know when I'll write again but I do know that I will continue to grow and learn from my wins and losses. I think I have some disruptive ideas in my head that will make life easier for myself once all the hard work of developing those ideas come to bear fruit.


the crazy thing about this platform is that it keeps pulling me back. I've changed the name to something I think is a bit more interesting but also more honest about what content people expect to find here.

reading my last post I realize that what I was about to put here today would of been the same thing except worded differently. I have grown since my first relationship ended but I imagine that healing and acceptance will only come with the passage of time. I've been contemplating writing a song about this whole ordeal but it would be something I've never done before.


I’m sorry I don’t always talk about my feelings, I want to make it up to some of you by at least putting them here. And then I’ll put every one of these disappearing notes in a permanent location so I can log my progress and feelings

Sleeping on this couch is something that will help. Entrusting friends with some of my struggles is the first step to growth. What other steps can I take? As I said to one of my friends tonight is that I work best when I have a small area of focus. I like working alone yet I’m unmotivated, I like small friend groups because I feel more like a loner yet I crave human interaction and touch when I’m alone. Is all this ilrelevent because I feel lost, goalless and pathless. Another day passes

Off topic but I often feel at war with my carnal desires and my mind. Of course the mind always wins but the conflict still takes up brain power. I hope these skirmishes subside as I get older.

P.s looking back this will not help me remember successfully, I might need to add a quick summery of the days events to help jog my memory

Went to an art show put on by the hospice center the artist was at. When to my friends house to go to a vegan place that makes cinnamon rolls. Came back and watched some YouTube and office. Decided to sleep on the couch. Started writing within Instagram and decided that I would start posting here again. Maybe this time #100days will be doable with so much time and so much on my mind.

The next year of my life is going to be crazy

it has been so crazy that I forgot to start writing the rest of this artical. I'm a little overwhelmed and that is leading to slow productivity which adds to the stress and compounds the problem. I don't really know whats going on.

what I do know is that I've read these books since we last left.
The Vexed Generation (Magic 2.0)
Steelheart (The Reckoners)
Firefight (The Reckoners)
Calamity (The Reckoners)
Mitosis (The Reckoners)
Meet the Frugalwoods
Sleep Smarter by Shawn Stevenson

Currently reading
Children of Ruin
The Obesity Code (really awesome book)

okay this kinda helped so I'm going to get back to work. If y'all have any prayers or encourgment I will gladly accept it.

Have a fantastic day.

Recap: I’m not dead

So I haven’t been here for a while, here is what I’ve done since my absence.

  1. I was in Italy when I was writing the majority of my #100days challenge but I was keeping it secret for safety reason. I stayed there for a month for some summer classes (two B’s).
  2. I went to Colorado with my girlfriend and her family for a week which was awesome
  3. I recently fell in love with a book series called Everyone loves large chests which I listened to on audible but recently found out that it’s a web series that’s wayyyyyyy ahead of the books. It’s my first lewdfantasy genre series and I honestly love it (pretty much anything video game related: Sword art online, konosuba, ready player one, ascend online).
  4. I just found out where I need to approve my guestbook entries and I approved all of them. Thank you for your concern and support for this outlet, it really means the world to me.

Ok so this is unorganized but that’s why we love listed. I didn’t die on May 24th but I did get pretty wasted and then proceeded to run through the streets of Florence to get back to my apartment to go to the bathroom. I don’t know why I stopped updating but I’m sorry for the wait. I might take up the #100days challenge but I might not. All I know is that I love this platform still and I’m excited to start posting again.

If anyone has any good Books, Anime, selfhelp, recipes, or life hacks (nsfw or otherwise) please send them my way.

I’ve been reading: meet the frugalwoods. I’ll talk more about this book and how it’s really inspiring me.

Also I’m hooked on those askreddit posts that are read by robots for some reason.

May 24 2019 13/#100Days

Currently drunk/tipsy
The room is currently spinning
Perfect time to write right?
Ohhhhhhhhhhg the spinning
I could of gone to the club but I got drunk at the pregame bar

May 20th 2019 12/#100Day

Eating in with friends, need to make more time for writing. Summer classes at 8am are so boring.

May 19th 2019 11/#100Days

Summer courses begin tomorrow, I’m having fun meeting with my classmates today.
Weird question but if you could buy one leather good which one would you buy? For me I think a bag of some sort would probably be the best in my opinion. Any clothing I would be scared to out grow in some way.

May 18th 2019 10/#100days

I honestly can’t really remember the last 24 hours that well. Everything is so hectic and I have gotten very little sleep.

May 17th 2019 9/#100Days

I don’t know if anyone else has this, but I sometimes just don’t eat. It’s the weirdest feeling but I sometimes just don’t feel hunger and I don’t really feel the effects until the following day. That’s basically what I did yesterday, just worked on my room and realized I didn’t eat until 12 at night.
I had some time today to talk about, well, today. I’m reading books, watching movies, and trying to forge habits that will be useful to me in the future while I’m still in a forgiving environment. I found some really good ads in craigslist for some awesome camera gear for a steal. I don’t have the money right now the ad is easily $5000 underprice. When I get the money should I see if its still available? If it is should I buy it and resell the gear separately? I could basically make my money back with just one of the items. I hope so much that this deal is still available and is not “too good to be true” story.
Made some strides in how one of my recording sets is going to look like and function. One major question is should I do green screen or no? One upside is that I wouldn’t have to have a complicated lighting setup, on the other hand I just have to light myself and my green screen correctly so that way i have good separation and my green screen has no hot spots.
Upcoming stuff I need to worry about is mainly finding an internship and afterward finding a well paying job that I used my degree to get.
Found out that my sync account got completely canceled so either I’m going to have to sign up again or make my own cloud storage solution. I think for now I can get by with some external hard drives but I do think making my own server would be a great learning experience. Maybe I can do cloud storage and also do a Nas just in case i get another editor working on stuff. I built my own desktop computer, how much harder could it be (sarcasm lol).

Well that’s going to do it for me today, if you have any question or comments please feel free to tweet or DM me on twitter @GLSSJG.

May 16th 2019 8/#Days100

I need to make more time to write. 11 hours of Youtube followed by 5 hours of awesome productivity. I loved that feeling of productivity.
I almost stepped on a scorpion today.
Also contacted my cloud storage provider about account issues, kinda annoyed that things aren’t working right even though I did nothing to break them. If this keeps up I want to build my own cloud server for my files using Nextcloud.

P.S. @mo of you’re reading this I would love to be able to push notes directly from the app to Listed. I don’t mind going to the website to publish it’s just a quality of life thing :) Keep up the great work 👍

May 15th 2019 7/#100Days

New Adobe updates yas.
I want to bike tomorrow
ninja warrior training really kicked my butt today.

May 14th 2019 6/#100Days

Played Skyrim all day. No regrets...

May 13th 2019 6/#100Days

So a lot has been going on the past couple of days, but I've been keeping my notes super short because I always get home super late and I have little to no time to write them before I go to bed. Today I'm writing at about 10:30 at night.

Events of the last couple of days: doing research on how to blend into another country, doing research on locksport and penetration testing, and shooting pictures of a dog.

Something that's been on my mind is a book that I read a long time about called "The First 20 Hours" by Josh Kaufman. This book really sparked interest in learning a lot of things and becoming a jack of all trades. Something that I tried way back when I was trying to relearn typing using an alternative keyboard layout called colemak which has a more balanced usage between the hands. The only reason we use QWERTY today is because of the mechanics of the typewriter. So I'm going to try again to learn colemak. Hopefully, I can be excellent in colemak and ok in qwerty without them messing each other up.
Currently stuck on what type of YouTube content I want to make. I want to produce high-quality videos, but I feel like I'm not good enough to improv my way through and also not strong enough writer (let alone scriptwriting). Help. I guess I'll have to start off being a no brain react channel and work on my acting at the same time, also I could find a way to put a twist on it and still work on getting better at writing and making long format original content.

wow, writing really helps you get all your eggs sorted.

    Current goals

    1. learn locksport
    2. learn to use colemak
    3. create 1 video a week for the rest of the year
    4. learn script writing/hire a writer
    5. Finish the #100Days Challenge
    6. find a new bag for my car tools
    7. Reach 1000 subscribers by the end of the year.
    8. Get my cardio back up.
    9. stress about all the things I want to do
    10. WATCH LESS YOUTUBE ( I watch about 4 hours on average just on my phone.... I need help )

    I'm loving all the activity on Listed this past week I read every single article ( I check three times a day) it really has replaced Twitter for me because I find all of you so enjoyable.

    If anyone wants to ask any questions or just say hi, you can sign my guestbook :)

    (also for some reason my font sizes are all wonkey on Listed hmmm)

    May 12th 2019 5/#100Days

    Today was so unproductive and I’m so tired. I just am going to write for like an hour tomorrow.