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Digital minimalism update

First off the good things. I learned how to solve a rubik's cube (sub 5mins so far), and I'm getting back into anime with the new season of log horizon and Kuroko no Basket.

I've been having trouble with digital minimalism. Staying off social media is easy but I don't think I was ready for the social isolation that comes from it. I have all the things against me, I was homeschooled growing up, moved to a rural area when I was about twelve, and drove an hour to university so I never really got to take part in all the activities. Durring university things got better when I got into a relationship that pushed me to be better but between lockdowns and general isolation with covid I feel like i've regressed to before university. I'm better with people now but the majority of my friends and acquaintances are now far away or grown apart from each other. Social media is one of the last connections I have with people and deleting it has made the problem more clear that I need friends. I find myself in the mindset that I don't even know what friends are anymore, the feeling is akin to not knowing how to be in a romantic relationship because you've never been in one or it's been too long to remember. I'm sure with both it would be like relearning how to ride a bike, it's super easy. With no bikes to ride and not being in an area where there are many bikes sold (especially high quality ones) how can one relearn. I'm trying but not as hard as I can. I think I'm going to double down on my digital minimalism with actively avoiding Youtube, as much as it is a source of creativity, learning, and entertaining short form news it is a time sink that sucks away any hard earned leisure time. Another short goal is if I find local friends that game online then I can strengthen that bond with some light gaming but push for in person interactions.

This might seem like all doom and gloom but I'm still have a optimist outlook on life. There is peaks and valleys but that only takes a small portion of our life and if we only focus on them then life will be shorter than it already is. Life should be pulled like taffy, squeezed to the very last drop. Relax but also go.

thank you for time. I hope to have a more favorable update soon.

one more thing

Something that I forgot to mention from my last post was this little insight. My porn addiction was being propped up by my phone usage. All my triggers that usually came from social media discover algorithms are gone and harder to access and I also don't feel the need to continue the dopamine high that I would get from continued phone usage. I hope for the sake of others like me that there will be a mass exodus from social media in favor of things that are real, pure, and dictated by our actions and not an algorithm.

Almost a one eighty

After reading digital minimalism by Cal Newport I have severely cut my screen time down over the past two weeks. During lockdown and six months after my first relationship my screentime on my phone hit an all-time high with one day reaching twelve hours and averaging ten hours that week. I mainly bounced around tinder, snapchat, instagram, youtube, anime, and various porn sites. The way this week is going for screentime is pretty absurd by contrast, I'm averaging about two to three hours a day. Yesterday I came home from work and talked with my mother about screen time usage so I checked my stats for the day... I was one minute under an hour! A lot of my time on my phone comes from youtube but it's under more control than ever before. That being said I need to incorporate more news into my daily data flow so I'm going to go with allsides and morning brew. Morning brew for daily news and allsides for following up on any articles that I get from morning brew.

I'm very excited for the future as I disconnect from the whole world and reconnect with my world.

Things I like/enjoy 15

Japanese floor futon

For some reason when I was growing up I would sometimes prefer the floor instead of a bed. My parents went along with it and got me a 1.5in thick piece of foam and I would rotate between my bed and the piece of foam. As time went on that piece of foam went to my best friend's house and when I slept over I would always use it. I spent nights less and less when I moved far away from my best friend's house so I didn't sleep on the floor for a while. Fast forward to 2015 and I have been watching anime for a little under a year now, I saw in some of the animes that they sleep on the floor. That reignited something inside of me and so I bought a Japanese floor futon, during this time there was little section and you basically had to choose between two companies but I bought one for 75 dollars. My parents thought it would be a phase but I'm still sleeping on Japanese floor futons to this day and for the foreseeable future. The sad thing is that I don't think I will ever find a partner that would want to sleep on the floor with me since it takes a certain mindset and a love for very hard sleeping mattresses. I’ll need to find a very hard mattress or some other compromise like a raised platform that is level to another half of bed. I wonder how hard sleep numbers can get.

Things I like/enjoy 14

Piano

For a long time piano was just a chore that I did to make my parents happy but I would say since march of 2020 I have been just been playing for fun. Sometimes just breaking down songs I hear into cords and melodies, improvisation, and reading sheet music.

Things I like/enjoy 13

Quality Time

When it comes down to it I like people. It's nice to at least share a space with someone that I care about. If they like that I'm there then that makes my heart sing, if its neutral then thats okay too.

Ayeeeee

Looks like my little stunt living in the year 9999 made a difference on the platform. Hi Mo, I hope you’re doing well. Are your businesses and projects are happy and healthy?

Things I like/enjoy 11

Weighted blankets

As someone who feels like they don't get enough hugs weighted blankets come in handy for that daily feeling.

Things I like/enjoy 10

Koss portapros headphones

These headphones may not have the soundstage of headphones with the drivers further away from the ears but I really do like them. the bass is punchy and everything else seems pretty detailed. I personally wear them with the headband barely touching my head with the main staying power coming from the clamping force of the comfort zone pad, I also set the zone to light to get just a little more soundstage.

A 2021 Comes

Just a couple of things to get off my chest.


For starters, I have a bunch of personal goals I want to accomplish and fulfill. A portion of these habits will replace bad ones, hopefully resulting in a more focused, happy, healthy, and prosperous life from now on.


Habits:

  • return to working out four times a week
  • writing hopefully seven days a week
  • shooting more creative photography 
  • learn a new language with duolingo



Things to decrease/limit

stimulation from artificial sources (my phone screen time usually hovers around 6-8 hours a day 

  • youtube consumption (I have learned so much from youtube, but without application, what's the point)
  • Instagram consumption of discovering & reels
  • Snapchat consumption of discover
  • Pornography consumption
  • and knowing some of these things will create a vacuum just being mindful of mindless consumption


limiting my simple sugar intake



I'm also going to be working on selling more of the items that I don't use/ have never used. If we die, we can't take anything with us, and if I were to move to another state or country, I'm not taking 90%+ of my things. So in the coming year, I need to figure out what I'm keeping and what I'm selling. Related to this is clothing. It does give me joy, but at the same time, I do think I have too many things. In the future, I want to find the 20% of items that use 80% of the time and then add some necessary utility pieces that can do the job of the other 20%.


I need to get my teeth aligned/whitened 



Lastly, I need to figure out how to interact with people again. Before going to university, I was raised in a homeschool family, so I didn't have many friends, to begin with, but I do feel blessed to have the ones I did. I stepped out of my shell during university thanks to my fast best friend, who I later dated. With recent events with minimal interaction with people, I feel very isolated, even going as far as to question what friends are again. I know it's a two-way street, but when no one reaches out, it can feel lonesome. As we advance, I will reach out to some of my acquaintances and old friends to see if they can help me realize what friends are again. I'm also going to be posting my availability on Instagram to push anyone that wants to hang out but felt like they were being a bother (how I usually think about reaching out). Depending on how well the Instagram campaign goes will determine how long it will run. Helping with my reintegration, I'm going to be re-reading "Mate" "Batchelor pad economics" and "how to win friends and influence people."


I know 2020 was challenging in many ways for many people. I took a toll mentally and relationally but blessedly also secured a decent first full-time job. 2021 is going to be one great year.

Things I like/enjoy 9

Gerber Shard

a very nice minimal tool for unexpected things. There might be better tools now but this one is mine and until I lose it I'll probably keep using it.

Things I like/enjoy 8

NarwhalCo Pens

I don't know when but at some point in the past when I was really into researching EDC I saw that a lot of people carried pens. I read many stories about how having a pen in a pinch can really be helpful. I got these narwhalco pens because they fit perfectly in my wallet and because if your register they will send you free ink refills, I haven't had to request any yet but it's been great having a pen with me at all times I cant tell you how many times I just break it out and people start cheering.

Things I like/enjoy 7

Pilot g2 pens

As a graphic designer a lot of my work starts with pen and paper. Any pen will work but if I have a choice it would probably be pilot g2 pens (Walmart r2 pens also work).

Things I like/enjoy 6

Computers

They are where I do basically all my work, but I love how they work. I work with mac and windows have built a couple of custom builds.

Things I like/enjoy 5

Photography

I always love the technical side of photography, all the rules, specs of cameras, and post production. I like dabbling in all types of photography but I feel most suited to journalistic or documentation. when working with people I have a lot of trouble with posing and getting them to look good, my candid work where people don't even know I'm there or don't care seems to be some of my best work that comes easiest to me.